rest.

god rest you, del martin. you lived an amazingly brave life. and peace be with you, phyllis lyon. i can only imagine the magnitude of your loss. and my heart aches for you.

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le sigh.

11:30 pm. i should be asleep. laptop battery is about to die and power cord is on another floor of the house–in the room with the precariously sleeping baby.
this is a hard week. jude is perfect, as is my h. anxiety is thick, despite. anxious about anxiety. [...]

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year of the asthmatic cat.

sal cat loves him some jude, as well as sufjan stevens. enjoy!
hmm. embedding from flickr seems to be a bust. url goodness.

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two months.

dear jude,
you are napping quite lightly beside me, after a filling milk lunch. you’re stirring a lot, which makes me wonder how far i will actually get in writing this letter to you.
ah, the monthly letter. made popular by uber-blogger dooce, these letters are all the rage amongst mamas who blog [...]

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first video

yesterday, i dug out my old digital camera that records video, and put it in front of jude’s face. i haven’t the time or patience to edit these days, so here is all two minutes of jude being shy and cute. also features lucy the dog. and my annoying voice.
enjoy!
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announcement

on the day jude turned 9 weeks old, she ROLLED OVER, with purpose and gusto. twice.
holy shit.

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thrive.

first, thank you to everyone who left such kind comments on my last post. it makes all the difference. really. today is a better day all around, and i’m sitting here in my backyard sipping a glass of wine in celebration of small victories.
so, today was jude’s and my 6 [...]

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achy.

i am having an emotionally achy evening. i can’t quite name it, but it’s the overarching ache that touches everything. a sleeping jude on my chest makes me weep. my beautiful lover kissing my head elicits a melancholy sigh from my lips. the happy is sad. the sad is overwhelming.
it’s the [...]

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four whole feet.

so there is a new phenomenon occurring in our household: ms judelet is sleeping most of the night in her bassinet.
we love the idea of the family bed. and the past 7 weeks have been absolutely divine with all the snuggling and easy access nursing during which i can sleep. but [...]

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big days.

well hello there. it’s been quite a while since i’ve sat still long enough to write a post. sorry about that. right now the little 7 week old is sound asleep so i thought i’d steal a moment.
so my mom came to visit last week and stayed for 5 whole [...]

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