holiday blues and golds.

our christmas was quiet this year. other than a brief visit to tiny texas on saturday, we stayed put, and had a lovely christmas lunch at home with our friend t. i was only mildly nauseated by eating that day. a gift. i slept a lot over my long weekend, and [...]

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really, i’m still alive.

so i think i may actually be surfacing from the hell of trimester one. sparky is growing up so quickly–14 weeks 3 days–and finally, i’ve been given a little relief from the nausea. it still comes and goes, but i’m regaining something like energy, which pretty much means that i don’t spend every [...]

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argh.

so it’s 8 am and i’ve been up since about 6:30.  can’t sleep.  need sleep.  have only had 5 hours of it.  feeling weak and hungry.  dry heaves.  i have some applesauce.  more dry heaving.  i’m so tired.  oh sleep, why won’t you find me?

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nausea.

i wanted to post a small entry about nausea.  on friday, i had a very long and busy day, and i actually had enough energy to make it through…with no nausea.
this weekend was restful and the only nausea came after i got cocky and thought i could easily digest chicken fried steak…after living on salads [...]

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13 weeks.

lots and lots to say, as i’ve been feeling a little better over the past few days. i’ve actually had enough energy to ponder the fact that i really have a human being growing inside me. like, for real. one that is my child. that i will birth in six months. [...]

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tears.

i just received this email from my dear friend james. i’d sent him a clip of what a baby’s heartbeat sounds like via doppler.
god, just listening to this over and over again, dear… you know what else it reminds me of?? unlike most normal people who didn’t want to be astronauts or voluntary lifelong [...]

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post appointment

when i arrived at michele’s this morning, the first thing she told me was that my records had not been sent. i offered a rumbly grrrrr, and she was all, “what’s the doc’s number?” she called, chose the physician’s line option from the menu, and demanded my records sounding all official-like. apparently, [...]

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appointment…

it’s the end of another nauseated day here in austin, texass. i worked a full day yesterday, and was consequently nothing but a useless lump all day today.  and so i spent another day in bed.  it’s hard not to feel defeated. luckily, i’m too exhausted to feel defeated. so [...]

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trimesters and me.

for those of you unfamiliar with how trimesters are measured, there are three (3!) models:
Development:
This uses actual developmental stages to divide up a pregnancy. From LMP to 12 weeks the embryo develops all the major organs and becomes a fetus. From 12 weeks to 27 weeks the fetus continues developing and reaches viability. From 27 [...]

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