update.

15 dpo and spotting. how’s that for a textbook luteal phase?
just got a call from the dr’s office, and my progesterone levels are at 27.6, which apparently = perfect.
dr. c says that she is “very, very pleased” with my response to clomid, and is excited for us to try again in august.
this makes for very [...]

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with humility.

yesterday, i asked for advice. (thank you.) today, i’m asking for money.
for this little guy.

this is phineas. he is one of two stray kittens we rescued from underneath an abandoned taco stand across the street from our house. we first heard their cries as we buried our beloved gunnie, and found them two days [...]

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advice?

happy thursday, everybody. today, i am seeking your advice.
i’ve mentioned previously that we are considering a move to oregon next year. well. we recently inherited a house in h’s hometown. let’s call her hometown “tiny”. tiny is located about 1.5-2 hrs from austin, deepinaheartatexass. heretofore, it’s always been a smallminded “yay we love bush” place. [...]

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tagged!!

i feel so popular! thanks oneofhismoms!
Here are the rules:
Let others know who tagged you.
Players start with 8 random facts about themselves
Those who are tagged should post these rules and their 8 random facts
Players should tag 8 other people and tell them they’ve been tagged.
1. i am a descendent of benedict arnold.
2. i once met anne [...]

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update

dr c thinks my chart is gorgeous, and after a thorough feel-up, she concluded that my ovaries are not being overstimulated and clomid + me = good.  no need for the dildocam after all.
she even gave us a new syringe with a catheter.
today is cd 21. my luteal phase history is spot on at 14 [...]

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pillow talk.

as i lay in bed whining about having to go to work today (thursdays are my fridays…), h tried to cheer me up.
me: meh.
h: oh, but guess what tomorrow is?!
me: friday.
h: [excited] and what does that mean?
me: it means i get up super early to go to dr c’s office.
h: and what will she be [...]

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textbook.

i am so proud of my chart this month that i must share it with you. i am so excited about clomid actually making me ovulate that i’m ok with this month being a dry run. i am simply looking forward to next month–which will be next month, not in like 45 days–when we begin [...]

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last goodbye.

gunnie was a little sensation on youtube. i had planned to film his first birthday for his youtube fans, but since that didn’t happen, i gave them this:

it was incredibly cathartic to do.

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shred of hope.

in the midst of the overwhelming sadness, a shred of hope: i got my first positive opk yesterday. my first positive opk since march. the clomid is actually working.
perhaps, now that he has some pull, gunther will nudge our child to come join our lives.

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goodnight.

at 8:30 tonight, we let our gunnie go.
already, he is buried outside the kitchen window, below his favorite window sill.
i held him as he went.
i will have more to say tomorrow.
for now, goodnight.

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